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Today for NEDA Week I’m going to share a personal story from Poisoned Rivers about her experience with binge eating and exercise bulimia. Please be aware that she is not recovered and this could be potentially triggering to someone who is going through something similar.

“I have had an eating disorder as long as I can remember. It started out as binge eating, but then I got fat. I figured that if I could burn off what I ate, then it “wouldn’t count.” My weight continues to fluctuate by as much as 30 lbs in a few months and I am constantly ill.

Food is the only thing that feels good, the only thing that causes me pleasure without pain, and yet at the same time, if I ever got as fat as I used to be, I would kill myself. But it’s so good! All the flavors, the sensations, the sweet and the salt. It’s the best high in the world.

The exercise in and of itself is a high. Your blood is gushing around your body, the endorphins are pouring out and you feel like you’re on top of the world. It’s so much better than purging, especially since I have a phobia about vomiting.

And yet, and yet, and yet,

I still feel like shit. I still feel fat, even though I’m at a normal weight. I still feel like a failure.”

Poisoned Rivers

I also recommend watching this video from CBS News about a personal trainer who was an exercise bulimic.

Related Posts:
NEDA Week: Types of Eating Disorders & Disordered Eating
NEDA Week: On Marilyn Vos Savant or why the word’s smartest woman isn’t that smart


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This week is National Eating Disorders Awareness Week. I know that is a pop culture blog so I will discuss movies, books and music that relate to eating disorders this week. However I will also be writing about issues as well since this is very important to me.

This week is also Body Image Warrior Week on many great blogs that I read including Medicinal Marzipan and Already Pretty. There are already a bunch of great posts up and I recommend keeping up with those this week.

Today I’m going to list some types of eating disorders and disordered eating. Disordered eating is when you don’t have a clinical eating disorder but definitely have issues with food and body image. Some people aren’t even aware that they have disordered eating. When I was younger I thought that I was just a really good dieter. An example of disordered eating is the following yogurt ad that was pulled from TV:

Individuals with eating disorders or disordered eating may engage in these behaviors to lose weight (because they fear being fat) or just as a way to control something in their life.

I feel that it’s way too common and irresponsible that it’s assumed that someone doesn’t have an eating disorder because they are not underweight. I believe that to clinically be diagnosed with one you have to be underweight. However there are many people of average weight or who are overweight who do the following things and they need help too.

Anorexia (Anorexia nervosa-clinical term)
Anorexia is basically when someone restricts their eating. They may not eat at all or just a very small amount.

Bingeing (Binge eating disorder-clinical term)
Binge eating is feeling out of control and eating a lot of food quickly. About 15 million Americans struggle with binge eating. I recommend checking out Binge Eating: You Know You Need Help, So Now What? on Medicinal Marzipan for more info and help with bingeing.

Bulimia (Bulimia nervosa-clinical term)
Bulimia is vomiting back up what you eat after binge eating.

Purging disorder
Purging disorder is when you vomit after eating but don’t binge eat. So someone with purging disorder may carefully regulate what they eat and then also puke it back up.

Exercise Bulimia
Exercise bulimia is exercising an excessive amount to work off what you’ve eaten. Exercise bulimia is sometimes just categorized under bulimia. Some people don’t even think it’s a real problem or haven’t heard of it. I was recently talking to a doctor who hadn’t heard of it and then dismissed it when I mentioned it. That is disturbing.

This was (is) my issue. I don’t usually do this type of thing anymore (not because I’m happy and fully fixed or whatever) but mainly because I have bad arthritis in my knees. I used to keep myself on a very regimented amount of calories per day and then exercise a lot on top of it. I would exercise 3-4 hours per day (minimum) at home and then often takes walks or do other things outside as well. This can be just as controlling to yourself mentally as something like anorexia. It’s also embarrassing. Once out of curiosity a friend asked me what I did all day since I wasn’t working. I made a joke because I just couldn’t bring myself to tell him that I exercised for hours per day. I found it particularly sickening since even when I did that I was just a healthy weight. I was never able to become thin. Even after I let up on regimenting my calories so much I still over exercised for years (despite my arthritis).

Orthorexia (Orthorexia nervosa)
I’ve recognized this behavior as being destructive when I’ve read or heard people talking like this but I didn’t know the term until recently. Orthorexia is characterized by an obsession with healthy eating. This is the type of person who will tell you that they can’t eat whatever food because it’s bad for them. Some vegans and vegetarians suffer from this. For more info I recommend reading Orthorexia Nervosa: the new eating disorder on Chocolate-Covered Katie.

Diabulimia is when someone with Type 1 diabetes takes less insulin than required so they will lose weight. This is very dangerous.

If I’ve missed anything or there’s anything that you want to add about these please leave a comment.

Related Posts:
NEDA Week: On Marilyn Vos Savant or why the word’s smartest woman isn’t that smart
NEDA Week: Personal Stories of Exercise Bulimia


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You're Not Doing It Right by Michael Ian Black

You’re Not Doing It Right
by Michael Ian Black
published by Gallery Books
(a division of Simon & Schuster)
releases on February 28, 2012

Feel free to both watch my video review above and read the review below as they are tonally different.

Recently I was lucky to receive an advance copy of Michael Ian Black’s You’re Not Doing It Right courtesy of Simon & Schuster. Michael Ian Black is an actor who has starred in such shows as The State, Stella and Michael and Michael Have Issues. The memoir is mainly an easy to read, acerbic flavored look at Michael’s personal life. It’s under 250 pages so I found it to be a quick read. I got through it in about 3 days. The 19 chapters have such witty titles as “meredith wants to give you a blowjob”, “fuck you, alan alda”, “i hate my baby” and “pills and booze”.

There isn’t much in the way of Black’s professional life. However many will probably find the book easy to relate to as he struggles with becoming middle aged and a yuppie. I found it interesting as an outsider who is not into suburban life.

Michael discusses many life milestones that everyone goes through including issues with your parents, trying to find his footing in the dating arena and losing a pet. The section about putting his dog down was particularly heart wrenching and I did sob, so be forewarned.

He also discusses how difficult it is to be a parent in a completely honest manner. Sure friends will tell you that their kids are driving them nuts but it’s not often that a public figure admits to it. He even touches on his depression. I found his ability to even share what he admits are his douchey qualities honestly and without blaming things on others. Some memoirs really try to pass the buck but his doesn’t.

I recommend buying Michael Ian Black’s You’re Not Doing It Right today. You’ll laugh and empathize.

“You can’t keep a show on the air”, he kills me.

Check It Out:
Michael Ian Black on twitter
Michael Ian Black’s Author Page on Simon & Schuster
upcoming book appearances by Michael Ian Black
Simon & Schuster Facebook

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Beauty & Underneath from Emma_moon on 8tracks.

8 tracks about beauty and what’s underneath


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Enjoy my video review of David Wain’s Wanderlust.

The film was written by David Wain and Ken Marino (who’s also in the movie) and directed by David Wain. It stars Jennifer Aniston and Paul Rudd. The above photo and poster and were selected from David Wain’s blog. You can see more here on my Childrens Hospital tumblr.

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my Fuck Yeah, Childrens Hospital! tumblr

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